I need to vent
Here lately I have had a lot on my mind. I don’t want to burden my friends with it so I’ve kept most of it bottled up. I figured since hardly anyone that follows me knows me, I would post all my problems on here. If you actually are taking the time to read this feel free to give me advice or words of encouragement. It would help!
Things on my mind:
1. It’s the end of the semester and I feel like everything is due at once. Unfortunately I am a procrastinator so I have waited until the last possible minute. I’m freaking out because there is so much to do and I’m also freaking out because I have a calculus test Monday. I never do the homework and usually text a lot during class. However I can normally look over my notes and figure everything out. This time I can’t figure any of it out. I don’t know what I’m going to do because I can’t afford to fail that test but thats what looks like is going to happen.
2. My boyfriend. I’ve always been the kind of girl to stay single. I am afraid of commitment so I just try to avoid relationships. However, I decided to give this boy a try because I really liked him and we’ve been talking for a while. We haven’t been dating that long but I’ve really started to fall for him. This scares the crap out of me. The other problem is that he’s a marine so he’s far away from here. I miss him like crazy. I’ve been thinking lately about the future though. If we should happen to work out and get married. Not that im rushing anything because marriage scares me too!. But I was just thinking what if. Well I had always imagined myself moving away from home. Somewhere far away. But the truth is deep down I knew I was going to be a townie. I was going to live in this town along with the rest of my family. But if things work out with him I’ll be moving all around. I don’t know how I would be living so far away from my parents. I’m not saying I want to live next door, I just want to be close. I’ve always had a good relationship with them and with my older brother. I don’t know if I’d be able to live far away from all of them. I’m scared I wouldn’t be as close, and that if something should happen I wouldn’t be able to get here in time. But thats a far out future thing so I’m trying not to worry too much about that.
3. My best friend. I’ve had the same best friend for a couple years and we have always been inseparable. We were incredibly alike and I trusted her with everything. Well now things are starting to change. She has turned in to quite the party girl, and i’m the complete opposite. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll party every now and then but it’s just not my scene. Whenever we talk, its about her wild nights. But our relationship has changed even more than that. She no longer tells me what is going on in her life. I feel like I don’t even know her. It scares me because she’s probably the best friend I’ve ever had. Her family is just like my family. I don’t know how to go about repairing our friendship or even how to tell her that i feel like something is wrong with it.
Well I think thats the end of my ranting. If anyone actually spend the time to read that, I’m sorry for wasting your time. Just had to get it all out. Now I feel much better and I might even be able to sleep tonight! :)
I have decided that I absolutely LOVE giving advice, so I figured since all my friends ask me, random strangers might as well ask too. With that being said feel free to ask me for any advice you need and I’ll try my best to help out! :)